What are you going to do tomorrow? Most humans have a pretty good idea because most people will, tomorrow, do something fairly similar to what they did today. What about next week? Same story. However, once we start to consider months or years, the story becomes a lot less certain. Next year, some people will still be doing something similar to what they are doing today, but many people have no idea what the coming months or years will hold, or even what they want those times to look like.

For the past several years, Beverly and I have been facing what I call a “void of uncertainty.” We are doing something that has a fixed end, and, as we get close to it, realize we don’t really know what comes next. We didn’t know where Beverly’s residency would be until a month before it started. When that ended, we didn’t know what we should be doing until God directed us to move to Alabama and help care for my aunt. Now that she has passed on, we’re back in the void, uncertain of where we’re going while plodding along in the same day-to-day routine.

We continue to pray for God to show us the next path to walk and goal to strive for, but he hasn’t yet revealed it to us. What to do in the meantime is a continuing enigma. We can continue doing tomorrow what we did today, but without a defined end, it feels like we’re lost. We’re wandering and surviving, but we aren’t following a path to anywhere.

As much as this sounds like our lives are filled with angst, I feel like God is teaching us how to work with uncertainty. It’s demoralizing for goal-oriented people like us, but I feel like we should be trying to mature past that. Maybe this is just me trying to manufacture a goal in a season meant to be goalless, but that’s just what I do. 😉

Regardless, while I look forward to having some certainty about the future, I do hope to learn and grow while “living in the void.”